I have a love-hate relationship with certain books.
The one relationship I have now is with Dave Harvey’s Rescuing Ambition. It is a very heart-check book but one that is difficult to handle when he writes things that the Spirit is convicting you of and wanting to eradicate in your life.
“We love glory. We were created to look for is and to love it when we find it. We’re pursuers – we go after things we value. What is it for you?” (Pg 21, 19)
If I say I’m a believer, and live my life for the glory of God…then why do I write? Do I honestly want to write this blog, write books, teach Bible studies for my glory or for the glory of God?
That is what I’ve been wrestling with this month. I want readership. I want to write a book and not have it just sit on a shelf and be a coaster on someone’s coffee table. I want it to change someone’s life. Why? So that God can get more glory than me – that His name can be made much of – or if I was honest would I say that I want people to know my name and my blog and think what I do is great and meaningful?
I do love to write. This has been a hard month, but one of more time to just be (or play Candy Crush) or to play with our son. My Sweet Mister doesn’t want me to give up writing. He encourages my writing. That is encouraging to me. I want to do what I do with a right heart toward the God who gave me the gift of writing and speaking in the first place. Not for notoriety or fame or publication or for thousands of hits. I need to keep this on the forefront of my mind daily as I start back to writing again.
So, for the three of you that read this blog, thank you. Thank you for letting me be a part of your life. Be glory-seekers, too!